Bruises

I tend to get bruises without knowing how I got them. In fact, most times I don't even know I have a bruise until someone points it out and asks what happened.

Saturday morning, I woke up with a bad bruise. This one was swollen and actually hurt, usually they don't. I don't remember hitting my arm and neither does anyone I was with. So, I decided to Google "unexplained bruises" and discovered many causes. Everything from blood disorders to a lack of vitamin C.

Then I discovered what the probable cause of my bruising is... corticosteroids. I take 4 squirts of corticosteroids everyday. Now I will continue my research to find out if I can do anything to stop the bruising.

Wish me luck!

Monday

I woke up feeling much better than last night. Even though I was REALLY tired. B was up for most of the night :(

This morning we went to playgroup and the kids had a great time. It is neat to see how fast the baby is growing. I don't know how much longer I can refer to him that way. He was walking around and playing just like the other children. He even had the same snack at the bigger kids.

G had his appt this morning and they ordered an urgent CAT scan for him. They don't believe the 'EG' is localized, but they have to see exactly what they are dealing with. The treatment could end up being steroids, radiation, or chemo therapy. If the EG happens to be in one place then surgery may also be an aption. G and I are really scared about the chemo option. I really hope it doesn't come to that.

The phone!

I forgot to mention... we found the phone! It was in the back room which is being used to store construction stuff atm. Go figure! How did we ever live without cordless phones?

Emptiness

Have you ever felt an emptiness and you just don't know why? That is how I feel right now and there is no reason for it. It isn't sadness, or any emotion at all. Its almost as if you are detached from the world around you and I really don't understand it.

I had a great weekend. Friday night I was able to go out and have a few drinks (okay 4) and I acted a little silly. I also met a very interesting older gentleman who, no he wasn't hitting on me, just liked to talk about the good 'ol days of dancing. I could see a sparkle in his eye when he talked about dances like the mashed potatoe. It was the same sparkle I feel when I dance. It was kind of like talking to a grandfather, if I ever had a grandfather to talk to that is. Anyway, as I said, I enjoyed Friday night.

Life doesn't stop when you have children, it just begins. They teach you so much about who you are and make you realize that who you've been pretending to be for most of your life, just isn't you. Very few people have actually seen the real me. The me who doesn't try to become the person people think I should be. My husband is one of those few. I can be exactly myself with him and he loves me for who I am. So why can't I be that same person with everyone I know?

Perhaps that is why I feel empty this evening.

On to happier things. Saturday morning we went for our annual KofC breakfast at Play Ball for St. Jo's. Then we came home, packed a picnic and took the girls to their swim lesson. After swimming we went to a picnic that I helped organize for the parents who belong to the CPO NB board. It was great to meet people I had chatted with and shared with and it was kind of neat that 4 of us who met last year (well I already knew 1) have now become friends.

I also felt bad though. There was a new mom to the board who would really like to become a part of our playgroup. I know what its like to have no one to socialize with during the day and to want that adult conversation. I think that the other ladies in the playgroup are happy with things the way they are. One of the mothers suggested maybe we get together with her once a month. I think I may contact her and get together with her a little more than that. I hate leaving anyone out. How would I feel if I were the newcomer and the other women were saying, "um no, we have enough friends. Thanks anyway" I know how I would feel, I would feel like shit.

After our picnic on Saturday we went for a short walk with the girls and then headed home. I finished the book I had been reading, Prey by Michael Crichton, and then went to bed.

This morning I woke up with this empty feeling that I have right now. I really didn't feel like going to Bible study or church. So I dropped D off at Sunday School and came home. Then an hour later, I picked her up, and came home. Then I had to drive G to get a rent-a-car, then I came home. I played some WoW while G laid down for a nap. (he was up with D most of the night) Then we had a roast beef supper and G headed to Halifax.

He's finally going to get something done about his tumors. I am so glad that they are going to treat them aggressively now, instead of waiting for them to grow and cause problems. I really hope they find them all and are able to get rid of them. I hate seeing him in pain. Not to mention how annoying the groaning can get ;) j/k

Tomorrow morning is playgroup. Lets hope I feel better in the morning.

Sunny days are here again!

Yesterday was such a wonderfully sunny day. We started the day by going to the centre for "crafts for big people". I made a wreath which I have proudly hung by our front door. D was still hard to leave, so I just left her and sure enough, within 5 minutes she was happily playing.

After the centre, we came home, had lunch and then it was nap time. Nap time for the baby, that is, and quiet time for the girls. Then around 2:00 we lathered up in sunscreen (althouth I forgot myself) and went outside. We decided to take a small walk around the court and we saw another little boy out playing. We played in his yard and then a little girl came out, she was visiting her Nana. I was quite nervous where we were playing (big hill and the parking lot) so I invited them to come play at our house. The chilcren had a blast and didn't leave until after 4:00. It is so much easier to amuse the girls when someone new is there. It'll be even funner when we get a wading pool for the backyard. Oh and I've discovered that we also need more sand for the sandbox.

Last night for supper, D wanted to have a picnic. She really wanted one so I said yes and started putting together a picnic, even though I had a steak marinating and potatoes already wrapped. When G got home, we headed to Rockwood Park. It was nice to eat outside and the girls really enjoyed it.

After supper, we headed to Olsen's to pick up some fruit and then came home. We put the girls to bed, although B kept getting up, and I played a bit of WoW until Super Nanny came on. Supernanny taught me a new technique for B's bedtime. I think we'll try it tonight.

Still haven't found the phone.